30 year old gay life

It is raining and there is nothing to go outside.

I wake up slowly in the morning and take down a piece from the Torrent and take all the dishes at home and eat it alone
I spent an hour in front of the computer sitting in the sink without washing dishes. When the program is finished, there is nothing else to see.

There are a lot of programs on the airwaves and cable, but if my favorite male entertainers do not come as guests
I can not download it.

If you do not see the torrent so much, you go to YouTube.
I just want to have an iPad every day I use it for Android.
Since iPad Pro came out on the 13th of this week, I have been browsing the iPad Pro every month and reviewing it on YouTube every month. I've searched on YouTube and found a new review that I've seen.

Since I have not released it in Korea yet, I have not come up except for a few early adopters.
I have seen the same review 30 times a month.

There is money to live, but money is a waste. I can not think of a gift to give to me because I need to save money and save money and earn money and I am worried about myself while watching YouTube every day.

It seems that there is not a lot of moanon money in the third year of a worker. The goal was to make 100 million by the age of 33, and until this year, there was a plan to collect 60 million won, but now it seems to have collected only 4 thousand. I do not think I have anything to buy for me.

It seems that the purpose of my life now is to be able to hang around from my village when I started to work in Seoul.
Actually, since I started to work, I'm starting to accept my identity.

It seems that it has been three years since the elementary school to deny the person who is gazing to the man alone and to accept it. When I was in school, I did not know my best friend alone, I had a crush on my friend. I went to college and I liked my brother like me alone. I was alone. My brother helped me like a son. I was alone. It's good to be alone and I keep it in the text archive and open it every day ...

But why am I in the midst of my heart? I wonder why I am different from others.
I've been hanging around like that one day.
I am 30 years older than my age.

The people who lie repeated every time are nowhere to go, and self-esteem seems to have fallen.
Every time I meet other friends, I lie to the situation every day.

There are people who are close to cousin, people who are in contact at the company, sometimes I have a good eye for the friends I meet. I have girlfriends to college friends who do not see often.
I do not even remember what I told anyone now. So nowadays I just say it's celibacy.

My inner Lal friends surely started to talk about whether I liked a man in the long time I have known for a long time, asked me if it was me, and I think my mother is wondering why she does not like women. ..

The company is also conservative, so if you marry, you will be promoted. It is a feeling that you start to talk about the new game and start the game with the end of it. In the first year of entering the company, I worked harder than anyone with the idea of ​​being my company. There was a good performance, and the whole department started to give me the name to know my name, and it was a good time to get the best grades and greetings.

But as time passed, I thought I needed to do this hard because I could not get married.
So the team people who were doing well and the manager who was with my brother started to push out slowly.

I was sick, but in fact, the closer I got to know, the more I had to ask for a more personal story, and the more I got closer, the more uncomfortable it was. So I started to get away for all sorts of reasons, and now I feel that the motivations are so bad that the chief and me are bad.

I have not had any close friends, I have been stressed all alone, and now I am relieved to eat, and now three years have passed, I am now 20.

I am now in a mirror and I have no pigs.

I wanted to be a good cousin, living in a good place, but the people I meet in society seem to be making my own decisions that I do not have a girlfriend when I see my fatigued person.

One thing though. I have a lover meeting up in Seoul. It 's been three years now.
A person who is giving me the greatest strength right next to me. A thankful person who silently listens to stories that I can not tell anyone.

But some time ago I saw the letter that the person was cheating on. In fact, I think I've been there a few more times before, but my personality is gone. I did not see it myself.

But this time, as soon as I saw the letters I was given, I was so angry that I wanted to stop.
But he got it wrong.

I was worried about it for a couple of days and I was very angry. But I still like him very much.
Because I was the first person I liked.

In fact, I was disappointed when I saw a lover who was not self-managing, but when I was with two, I did not express myself. It would be my fault.

I feel like I have been missing out on a lot of stress and life balance in my life for three years as a lot of things happen internally and externally.

But one thing is clear, now that I have been destroyed by myself and outwardly, I have seen people.

I am a little bit tired now, people who ignore me when I meet,
The children also saw that they were alive and well, especially this one was more important outwardly.

But I am worried about my health in the middle of it.
There is a saying that the person who is standing next to me when the person is hard is really my person. Now it was visible.

I think the last three years of my life is a slump. Self - esteem also. Values ​​also.
I guess it's all about releasing all this.

I write down here words that I can not release anywhere, but I have a complaint and a promise.

Now I'm going to love you a little more from the stress of all.
Exactly a year later, I promise that I will use my changes here.
From today, I will try to be a mature person of mine and me, to be a man worthy of my people.

I'll see you in a year.