Sunday, April 11, 2010

Even in a dream you think 19 (Geumseolhwi)

At my age the age of five.


My father passed away.


The father of Japan's largest construction company president visited the construction site hasyeotdaga


Of workers had died accidentally crushed to death under steel has fallen.


In the usual gold, but as soon as a good mother, my father passed away in shock, did not fall.


Because of the time of death, I know what I know eoryeotgi did not even feel no sorrow.


Just a few days does not seem to be worried about his father


Be broken without a recognizable shape to hold the body away as ansseureoul ulbujiteotdeon mother ......


Beautiful shiny blond hair was lost when pupils puseokhaejigo sireumsireum light enough to lose the mother aldeon


One day, I shed tears, hold me he was became frustrated.


We really did in my mother always smiling ....


I was became crying ....


I'm sorry ....


He seemed to have ... you can not live without


Said on its disposal.


Soon after that incident, I can not leave her place next door to me did.


Yeopjipen often to visit my friend, he's living up to danyeotgi eoteomeokgo because his mother are waiting for dinner


Without waiting for my mother to come pick me up by my grandfather's home in the dark complexion.


And since that day, I could not see my mother


Some time had passed she was found out that my father went along.


As to his own life boils ....


And my grandfather, my parents wanted to see the painful expression on bochaeneun


The two men would not be able to see it until his death he said.


What would you die ....


I get hurt, I cry like before your parents come up to me not surprised .......


I think so .......


Then the tears poured.


Know what death was a very young age.


Since then I went to bed, wait, is due to the impact.


As the painful reality escape ....


Every day ...


Nowhere better than my grandfather went to bring the hospital to the severity of hypotension, but was not a particularly painful place.


Have mental health problems just as well ...


Sleep, one in every dream, my mother, my father was.


Unlike the real world, dreams can not see the grandfather who was became parents.


However, parents are always a sad face ...


Sad face ....


Knew why.


Grandpa was now forgotten, say two minutes, you've been let go ...


We do have two minutes, even in dreams, sadly, did not want to.


So .....


Like you said, forget about my grandfather, the release said farewell.


SAD, but not to bother the two of you ...


Bright and strong, do not disappoint me alone, always decided to live happily.


She howls again sorry for me well enough to not have to see live.


Finally, my parents seemed happy to appear in my dreams.


And since then ....


Strangely a lot to fix, but not bad sleep habits peodaejaneun did not fix easily.


Mothers, fathers dreamed of, but not ...


Sometimes I will think.


So ...


Throwing away your life, loved Am ...


My mother went off on me a bit of envy, but are not mipgi.


Love is not great enough to throw your life does too lightly ...


I love and not know it yet.


But one day, to love, love will not fade as if the photograph of his mother ....

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